The Clown from Clowne
That’s me.
I am a clown in a way. I have tricks I play, a pack of cards with the name of the card in big pictures at the back. I ask a child to pick a card but not tell me what it is. They wait till I say their card then they often cry “you cheated!” “How?” “It says on the back the nine of clubs, you read that when I took it!” Then the child laughs realising I was leg-pulling.
I love doing silly things things that pleases tots. walking into the door is one. “Now stay open, door!” I turn to the child and say “Isn’t the door silly” at the same time i push the wood shut with a hidden part of me like my knee or foot, and WHAM! again.
I like all those silly games. I have a spare dummy (US comforter) which I put in my mouth for young children, older children get my (many) silly made-up rhymes. I also do acts. Dress up as a fakir and have a basket and rope which with an Indian flute, I send up in the air by cotton links.
If you have read Sophie Morgan’s poems, well, that’s like my childish mind! but all clowns are children, I love dressing up, have a stack of hats and so on. sadly though as my children have grown up my talents go a bit to waste.
Remember that though I have never hurt a child in my life, an old man who has had a stroke does not inspire confidence. i have had my children’s friends worried about me being with my grandchildren! My grandchildren love my antics, My standing by a half-mirror and raising up one leg and arm with the mirror making it look as if I have raised all my limbs.
Ah well, I do try to be something else as well as a poet because I love acting silly!
Sad I can’t help upsetting people too, but that is asperger’s. For 56 long bitter years I have had no conscience, no empathy, no understanding and no tact.
I can’t lie even except in fiction, and if something pees me off, I go into attack mode. I don’t mean to be so rude, it is just me.
We all have our dreams. I should not get angry with someone else’s dreams just because they involve a God and a Messiah (for example). I can’t use Asperger’s as an excuse, not after 56 years. It sounds as if I have learnt nothing at all in all of that time.
Ah well, that’s more than enough for you to read.
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Lord Pineapple, The Clown From Clowne
Comments (34)
all 56 were bitter? What is Asperger’s?
You are such a Clowne…You are more than a mere poet….you have heart;you do not want us to see it.You have empathy…even if you just bought it.I do think your understanding is coming to the front….does not matter as long as it comes.Tact…I kinda think this is a British thingy…Ha!…You may never have tact.But I truly know you have heart…it is still beating…Yes?….then whatever you may want to add or take away from your life….you can.Thank you for the pleasures of reading you this short time….Luv Ya!
You DO have a way with word, though. Oh, and for the card tricks. I’ve gone an effect where I can see through the backs of the cards. comes in handy in Bridge matches.
You cannot be a clown, love being silly for the kids, and not have empathy. They go together–I know–I’ve been there. You need to give yourself more credit.
I went and did a little research on Asperger’s Disorder. I’m glad I did. Thank you.
The birdsong I heard COULDN’T be from the THS, could it? LOL
Hi! Thanks so much for your kind words about my stories for the past two days. I was just wondering as to what type of writing you do? Besides your fantastic poems, what other sort of writing do you like to do? You are a superlative scribe!
~Andrew~
I love you 100% as you are. If you and I have differences, we work them out. You keep me in line and I’ll do the same for you. A team, you in Britain and me here in the United States, the greatest country in the world.
Everybody loves a clown. Maybe you love entertaining children because they are so honest and non-judgemental when on the other adults lack those qualities. Your empathy goes where it is needed. Don’t be so hard on yourself, you are who you are. As for the Messiah thing, somebody has to be bigger than our egos.
You don’t strike me as unsympathetic at all. Quite the contrary. I think for you to have the warmth that you do is great. Many of those who have Asbergers don’t get that far. Maybe you just go about it by being silly with kids, but kids are the most pliable in the laws of human nature. They let us be who we are and accept us that way too. You keep being who you are and I know I am not the only one who enjoys reading what you write. Keep stepping on the lines of life and be the original soul you are meant to be!!!!
I am glad that you feel free to play with your grandchildren, How sad others judge your play. I guess we must accept in today’s society that anyone other than the child’s parents that spend time with children are looked on with suspicion…well we all know the reason for that, some of us more than others.
I think I would enjoy your antics as well, although I had a bad experience with a clown as a child, and the “painted” up clowns with the Fright wigs still give me the willys, I still love a prankster!
I am going to read up an aspergers…All this talk has me wondering….
You strike me as quite a feeling person…otherwise you wouldn’t write the great poetry that you do, or give encouragement to others like me! *hug*
some people just can’t see outside themselves. i think it’s great that you play – playing is what keeps the sanity in tact!
The clowns are a large heart and are loving . The ” silly ‘ tricks are the expression of the creativity . They jump suddenly out of their minds . It ‘ s quality to remain young in mind .
In friendship Michel
I relate so well to how you like entertaining the children. For me it is not so much in the silly acts and clothes, but in the voices and completely out of the blue statements. I like to tease them by answer, “may I have…” with “NO! I don’t even like you!” to which they always giggle and offer thanks as they go to get whatever it was they wanted. In those moments, there is nothing more enjoyable than that moment and later the memory of it. Infinite Blessings
dude… the face, whats up?
Maybe I need to do some research on that disorder because right now my thinking is that I would have preferred it if you would have not come to my site and left me a comment at all. Because I think that the comment you left me was totally uncalled for. And by the sounds of this post, I think you know that.
You see, I believe that everyone has a right to their own opinion, but, I also believe that we all have the right to write whatever we want to on our blogs (unless it’s against policy). And sometimes some things are better left unsaid.
cheerup hun
we who like you – like you for who and what you is:)
and you are a good one
love maisie
Your comments are always welcome on my site….we may disagree about theology, but this is not a theological forum. I see this as a writers community (borrowing that term from pitsnpotree). We write what we know, what we live. We write about what’s occuring in the grey matter. My children love Sophie’s poem’s. D. read some of your poetry and I had to expain about alter-egos, because he was enraged by the big German. Likewise, my poetry is about what I live. My faith is deeply entwined in all of my life. I won’t make excuses for that. Also, my faith is strong enough not to be offended when someone disagrees with me.
I can’t lie either…not because of anything medical, but because I am a crappy liar.
i want to hear a silly made-up rhyme for older children……….
….many people i know are actually scared of clownes
how silly
O.k. I just read about Asperger’s and now I understand it more.
I’m not pissed off at you at all. I was just disappointed. You have said such nice things to me in the past.
And because I have posted some verses from the bible (for reasons you don’t even know), you come to my site and say what you said.
You hardly ever comment anyway, so why did you this time?
I enjoy the honesty of what you write. I also went to look up this Asperger’s and it was most enlightening. Thank you:)
All I said to simplywriting is “you haven’t gone all religious on us have you? You are too good a writer to mess about with dead judgements.
Not nasty so much as sad that this writer who I have OFTEN commented on cleared her blog and make it full of bible quotes.
I can do that, what about the one about “bashing babies heads against the wall”? (Deuromantry)
Good, ain’t it.
Oh, but you do. You do have a conscience, empathy, tact, etc. You just choose not to believe it. You’re too humble. All 56 of those years were bitter? I find that hard to believe. Eh, as I’ve said, it’s all based on perspective…
Clowns are very very evil
No, that’s not really what you said. It was more like, (Ahhh now you gone religious on me. I loved you better before.) I’m just paraphrasing because I don’t remember your exact words, but, I know that this is pretty much what you said to me. And then you told me to have a good life. Are you assuming that I am no longer going to write on Xanga?
I know that a couple of other people have made that assumption, when all I was doing was thanking people who have treated me as a friend (which I have always felt you have done when you are signed on as Lord Pineapple).
I think I have two bible quotes on my blog and if you have been paying attention for the past month or two, I have been only keeping a few posts for the public eye to see.
Plus, I think you know that I’ve been busy with other writing and haven’t been posting much at all.
Please, if you don’t like what I post, just don’t read it. I have personal reasons for posting what I post and do have the right to post it. I’m sorry if you don’t approve of this writer any longer.
I wonder if you know what you did for me that made an extremely positive impact on my life. If you don’t know and you would like to know, I will gladly tell you.
I don’t like to hear that you have no conscience or empathy… I doubt that is true. Understanding, I know you have… it is only the lack of tact that I can believe… and then only partially.
Hehe, i think your comment to simplywriting was not offensive, but i guess you touched a nerve or something
I could have done the same thing in this case and i don’t have Aspergers.
But whatever it is, i like you the way you are and love your funny, witty, caring, informative, thoughtful, and SINCERE posts and comments. I think once you posted something that was difficcult for me to accept in my blog, but it made me think and helped me with my research. I thank you for that, because i KNOW you don’t want to offend me.
I’ve always disliked it when people uses “diplomacy” to agree with you and then behind your back they’re saying how stupid you are for the same thing
You have a good heart, and in a world full of liars, the truth can be seen as evil.
Give yourself a break, many people love your whole personality pack here… including me
Oh, thanks for the butterfly comment. It made me smile and i was quite depressed
Ohh… i researched a bit and i believe this has more to do with the comment to someone else right? Don’t worry, everyone has bad days and as long as you apologize your real friends will understand
I’m not sure that I could offer up the kitten as a sacrifice to the Sarah’s. I don’t want it dead, I just wish that someone would have said something about it.
Hi, thanks for visiting my site. I am sorry to know that your daughter has died. It must be difficult for you and your wife. I hope you have gone throught this. If I were your daughter, I would love to see you live happily in the world. So if you have a chance to come to Hong Kong again, you may consider to have a go at that (provided that you are interested in it). You may enjoy the life in Hong Kong. Anyway, if you decide to take a trip to HK, you are welcome to send me an e-mail in advance and I am happy to show you some interesting places in HK.
When I was reading your blog, I found that I am similar to you coz I always act like a child and got some funny gestures and facial expressions that make my students/ tutees and other kids (or even my family and friends) laugh. I enjoy doing to so coz i am pleasant to see other people smiling and pleased. Also, i admit that I am not a tactful person and always being frank and blunt. ( your blog inspired me to reflect on myself and I found it a bit long to post it here so I post it on my site, you are welcome to comment on it.)
Your post/comments—relation
Is one I read with fascination.
maybe your aspergers was a misdiagnosis…i remember reading your blog some time back about your disease and looking it up to read on it…ever since then, i have read many comments left by you to me and others and am amazed at the kindness and caring side of you that contradicts your disease…it is my opinion that you are just a good soul…with broad opinions who has had a big bite of real life…and you love children…you are too cool, Terry.
You’re a very interesting person. I like how you act with children, that is funny and cute. I didn’t know you had a stroke. My father had one too.